Really, when you're full of things to be update and you did not know from where that you shall start and give it a go, that's when you decides that it's okay to not updating anything for this week. I know I shall be reading the Biology notes, and oh, the Chemistry too. Improvement is desperately needed for the next test, I mean - obviously I've started to doubt my decision choosing to enroll myself in the pure science stream instead of opting for the Account's or the Tasawwur's class and the cause for all of this doubt? It's no other than my mid-year result. Getting some A's is indeed, a thing that I should be grateful but I have my target and I failed to reach it, for the A+. So far, the A's that I've got was the A- and the normal A. Well, still is I'm grateful thus it makes me realised that getting as many A's that you want in the first test (effortlessly, I tell you. Heh, full of sense of berlagak-ness lah this fella -.-) will not make you stay inside the comfortable zone for ever. You have to step out from that zone and challenge the limit that restrains you from getting the outcomes that you desire. As what emak always said, there's always a room for an improvement and which I still believes till now. Despite all of that, the results still managed to knock me down severely (literally) and it's a credential that I've been playing around too much. While everyone are already busy catching up with the studies and I'm still here in the comfort zone, refusing to come out of it. I think I've acknowledged this kind of situation before. Well, you know - the same thing happened when I'm still a Third Former, the year of taking PMR and still busy fighting over the urge between studying and slacking off. I knew well how it leads to ... so I shall be more careful starting now.
1) My Skype's conversation with Atiqah should be extend until the clock strikes to 1 AM (well, in the morning lah, of course xD) but we have to cut it short to 12.06 AM since I'm tired and enough rest was needed after half of my day was spend on attending the Prefect's Leadership Enhancement Course or Kursus Pemantapan Kepimpinan Pengawas and Atiqah's day was spent on attending a camp / motivational talk been held at Manjung's power station. She was busy reading the tweets in her twitter time line meanwhile my half-closed eyes were busy reading over an online manga scanlations on the net. Our mind are not properly directed / adjusted to the conversation that we have started as we're drifted away by the distractions; both the Twitter and Manga4 were to be blame. So, not much of a story were told, except for one which is ... I don't have the intention to write it here. So my apologize in advance :P
2) A dear friend of mine, Amira Ramli actually gave me something for my birthday. Really, I wasn't expecting for it :O I mean, my birthday was on the 30th of May and the right-now date are closing to the mid of June. I didn't expect anyone to give me a present on my birthday besides my family, so I was both equally shocked, and happy. I loves to give people gifts, but I'm not keen on receiving them. Maybe because I'm not used to it but anyhow, thank you, sahabat :') Words can't describe for how grateful I am. It's okay, I would definitely return the same favor on your birthday. InsyaAllah. Thank you for wishing me through the text message, and another one by a post on my Facebook' wall, and a post dedicated to me on your blog, another wishing from you on the first day after the holidays ended and a gift for my birthday. Haiish, next time - let it be me who gives you the gift, you shouldn't spend your money to buy one for me, okay? What I'm needing the most was the pray being said to wish over one's happiness, success and to pass through their life smoothly for both the Dunia & Akhirat. Friends till Jannah, is what I'm hoping :) Amiin. And oh, to the others who dedicates me an entry for my birthday, thank you, thank you and thank you. Words couldn't well describe for how much I'm grateful for being given such a group of wonderful people to befriend with me. Friends till Jannah too :)
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| It's Cho Kyuhyun on the front of the card; which throws Izatti Nordin into a screaming fits of jealousy :P |
3) I'm on the edge of doubting my choice to become a syarie's lawyer too. I'm considering to become a doctor, too. And a kindergarten's teacher as well cause I loves kids =) well, that's too general. If I'm to become a syarie's lawyer, can I really overcome the limit that I've mentally put to myself? The fear of probability to lose in a case or even makes the situation worse for a near-to-divorce couple (you know, it's just the sort of thing that a syarie's lawyer will have to deal to in their job scope; handling the case of a divorce couple)? You know, syarie's lawyer was suppose to console the couple to not taking the matter of divorcing lightly and how they should think rationally whether they should put an end to their marriage, the consequences that come afterwards and how it will affect them. What if I fail on that part, the consoling one? These kind of thing actually brings me close enough to kena ketuk di kepala by Asyiqin saying that downgrading myself down will lead me to nowhere -.- I'm not downgrading myself, I'm just questioning my own capability on doing that, which invites me for another risk of kena ketuk di kepala =.= And I don't know if I should elaborate more on this syariah's law and stuff. I'm sorry if it bores you.
Assalammualaikum.
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